It's Here

My very first trigger shot arrived today.

It was in a ridiculously oversized box:

Which only held these three things:

That needle looks awfully big.

DH asked who is giving me that shot.

I looked at him longingly. He turned away. I then told him either my mom (a nurse) or Dr. Terrific would do it. It's not that I don't trust DH to do it, but I just don't want to put him in that position. Not to mention that I don't think he wants to inject me in the first place!

Nor do I want my ass to hurt any more than it has to hurt. (It does go into my butt doesn't it?)

So . . . it's here. Now what?

Christmas Card Ideas

(Note: I started this last night, finished it this morning, and finally have a chance to post.)

Effing Xmas cards. I'm tired of them. I'm tired of putting the thought and heart into them each year. We have photos taken, include photos of the pets, maybe write a little something, have custom printing done, go over the list to keep it under 150, address all of the envelopes, seal, stamp & mail them all. It's just a lot of money and work, and just don't really feel like it.

I feel like this year we should send them out to look something like this:

We'll just use last year's photo and this year's text, which should have/could have been text for the past two years.

If it's not appropriate to send these out - and believe me, I'm tempted - I may not send any out at all. Instead, I'll wait for all the precious, cute, wonderful cards from family and friends with their precious children that I don't have. How's that for some bitter Christmas candy?

Lots Going On In There

I survived the terrible H1N1 virus, and I am slowly rejoining humanity. I've been out of the house a couple of times, and I'm headed back to work tomorrow. After going through the swine flu, I can see how people with underlying medical conditions can die from it. It's that awful. I'm disappointed that we missed this past cycle, but I'm looking it as an opportunity to have lots of wine with my Thanksgiving meal . . . or something like that.

There is a lot going on in my head. I need to sort a bunch of it out before I begin putting any of it to paper. I'm just in one of those "places." I'm not sure how to describe it, really, but I'm just kinda quiet right now. Typically, quiet for me is not good. However, this is a quiet I need to get through the rest of 2009, through the holidays, through some things I need to figure out. There is nothing anyone can do to help me. I'm the only one who can do it. It's not all good, not all bad. Some of it's in between.

Don't worry . . . I'll still be blogging. I don't know what it will be about, but I'll be around to ramble some more.

Cancelling IUI

I was diagnosed this morning with H1N1, so I'm going to cancel this cycle. My FMS is scheduled for Monday, but I just don't feel well enough right now to even think of going through everything this week.

Hope nobody reading has to deal with the swine flu. This is AWFUL.

Dear Puncturer

Dear Puncturer,

You must've hit something more than my "channel" yesterday. My thumb is bruised, swollen and sore today. No more needle in thumb please. Ouchie.

From Your Puncturee

Pictures of Puncturing

Today I told my Puncturer that he should take some photos so I could show my DH (and all of you, too, but I thought he might think that to be a bit odd). The Puncturer thought it was a great idea!

He pulled my phone out of my purse, inserted my needles and began clicking away. I soon felt as if I were a tourist attraction. The funniest part of the whole photographing process happened before he took the first photo. While I'm stretched out with needles, I keep my eyes closed. The Puncturer begins counting, "1 . . . 2 . . . 3 . . ." and I start laughing. I said, "You don't need to count. I can't see you, and I'm not going to smile!" He shot the photo and said, "You were smiling there!" You won't see that photo because it's awful. Not that the rest of these are flattering whatsoever but here they are.

Here you can see several needles in my fat, tired, zit-ridden face since I was stupid enough to want asked for some help with sinus pressure. You can see one in my forehead, two sticking sideways into each eyebrow, and one sticking out of each side of my nose. Those hurt.

Needles in my legs, feet, and even in my toes!

And the last one is of my big belly. You'll see the needles in my upper and mid stomach, along my bikini line, and in my hands and thumbs.

I can't believe I just showed the world those terrible shots. I have no dignity. The things I do for you people! Don't get your hopes up (or should I say don't worry) . . . there will NEVER EVER, EVER be ANY photos of me in the stirrups. EV-ER.

A New Award

After posting my last entry about being "back in the saddle," I began to think about all of the other men and women in this world that are doing the same. So many that need recognition that their words provide strength and inspiration to the rest of us. I decided that we needed a blog award to share with others and I got to work. Therefore, I present:

The Back in the Saddle Award

Background: This award is given to bloggers that are "Back in the Saddle" of life. This may be someone who is undergoing medical treatments, restarting his/her life, resurfacing after a tragedy, or someone who is just trying to sport a new attitude. Recipients have an attitude of a fighter, strive to be a winner of the battle, and show determination.

Rules: Post the award's graphic, background, and rules on your blog. Explain how you are "Back in the Saddle" again, and then pass the award on to at least four other bloggers who are "Back in the Saddle" just like you. Make sure you let them know that they have been given this award, and ask them to pass it on.

The first recipients of the prestigious Back in the Saddle Award are:

1. Shanny - Shanny is battling Infertility and refuses to give up. Keep going, girl!

2. Jen - After suddenly losing her husband last year, Jen has decided to get back on the horse called life and ride it with all her might.

3. No Swimmers - After losing her precious twin girls, N.S. recently became a mommy and is riding in a new saddle.

4. Sarah - Sarah is going to be a mommy next week! Thanks to the blessing of a birthmother, she and Jamie are adopting precious Payton who is scheduled to be born on November 9th.

5. WiseGuy - S is also battling IF and trying to maintain a positive attitude despite it all.