Sunday, April 19, 2009
Don't Have a Title for This
I don't even know what to say. I don't even have much to say. Another cycle - gone. BFN. Spotting. AF will be here tomorrow. No 2009 baby. Going at this for over 2 years now, 3 calendar years. Ovulating normally. Everything is normal. Can't get pg. We probably aren't even doing it right anymore. Don't want another surgery. Can't afford ART. Sick of temping. Didn't even temp this morning. Tired. Really, really tired. Wondering if this life we already have will be enough without children. Maybe it is. Maybe God has other plans for us. Don't know how much longer I can do this. Not necessarily sad or depressed. Just tired. Almost done. Thank God for wine.