"Here's the answer."
I haven't heard that in this whole journey. However, I heard it for the first time today. Not only did I hear the answer, I saw it with my own eyes.
Today's appointment with Dr. Super becomes a long story, but I'll give some of the basics now and follow up with details later. Hope that is acceptable to some of the
1. The fear and apprehension I had about today's appointment - mainly the hysteroscopy - was (as always) worse than the actual procedure itself. Granted, a foot-long, metal pole-thing that shoots saline inside of your bum ute and takes video isn't fun, but I expected worse. (For the record, I took photos of said scary pole thing.)
2. The answer? Adhesions - scar tissue - is taking over 1/4 of my uterine cavity. The fundus of my uterus is completely blocked. Surgery will be needed (yuck), but it has to be done.
3. My AMH results will be back in a few days. I hope and pray, pray, pray that it's normal.
4. If my AMH is normal, there is a strong possibility that we could actually conceive a baby on our own without ART. Amazing, hope-inspiring, and nerve-racking.
5. I'm totally pissed off at Dr. Gloom & Doom. His stupid ass should have caught this. He did the SAME EXACT procedure I had today with me under anesthesia and cost me a shitton of dollars and lots of valuable time. There is absolutely no reason he should have missed it. Even I noticed the scar tissue, and I'm not a licensed medical professional. A few people have already recommended that I pursue legal action against this S.O.B., but I prefer to direct my energy elsewhere.
I'll have more details coming about the appointment itself, what I saw during the procedure, the pictures that were drawn by Dr. Super, causes, follow up, what surgery would entail & more.
The saga continues . . .
PS: There have been several people that are IRL friends, internet friends, online/board friends, readers, and others who have sent me love and well-wishes lately. Thank you. I've been in a real reflective place about all of "this" lately & haven't responded to many of you who have reached out, but please know it hasn't gone unnoticed and that I love you and appreciate you.
11 comments:
So glad that you now have some answers. Boy, do I know the feeling... I had almost the exact thing happen to me with my 1st RE. Just keep on looking forward. :)
This sounds so incredibly positive! I know you still have a long way to go, but I am so grateful that you've had at least a few footsteps in the right direction!
That is FANTASTIC news. Oh Kristin, I'm so happy for you. I'm glad you're directing your energy toward positive things, but once you have your sticky baby, stick it to Dr. D&G. He owes you big time.
Praying this is the answer for you guys!
So happy you have some answers! I bet you loved hearing that saying.
That sounds very, very promising. I'm very nosy, so I'm waiting for the details here ... I love how frank you are. Feeling optimistic on your behalf!
Having answers is at least allowing some hope. I am so glad you found your doctor and my heart goes out to you. I hope you get good results on the test and you can proceed on getting KU. Hugs!
Jeeeezus...am so glad that you are in better hands now...I hope you recuperate well, and AMH numbers turn out favourable....
Good Luck!
wow! i'm so glad you have something to rectify!! praying that this is a big step to your baby coming home!!
Thinking of you as always, and hoping that this is the answer for you!
I think we are all filled with a renewed sense of hope for you. Not that we ever lost it...you know what I mean. Love you :)
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