Tonight is tough for some reason. I desperately want us to have a baby, and tonight I feel desperate in that possibility. I have tears in my eyes and an emptiness in my heart. I don't understand why this is happening to us. I feel so cheated.
As an elementary school teacher, I see children EVERY SINGLE DAY who are not being parented. Why do people have children if they don't plan to love them, parent them, and nurture their upbringing? WTH are they thinking? I could go on a long, angry tirade about it, but I'm down right now and know that I can't fix others much less own situation right now.
I just needed to get that out. God, what if we never get to have children? Tears begin to flow . . .