"Hi there - good to see you. Making that mental shift to adoption will take some time, and that is OKAY. I think any of us that have battled IF still carry our scars. Some are fresher than others and some are deeper, but unfortunately we all have them. Nobody can tell you what to do of course, but I recommend seeking out a counselor that specializes in infertility.
Thanks to resources offered by RESOLVE, I found one in my area and she was amazing. I only saw her once, but that was exactly what I needed - someone who had been down my path and truly understood where I was. She was also able to see where I would be someday, which is something I couldn't visualize at the time.
Yes, I still have moments of grief that creep up on me because I know that I will never be able to conceive, carry, or deliver a child. I will never have the cute pregnant belly that I used to make as a pillow when I was little. I won't be able to share DNA with another human other than my parents.
Even with all of that said, I WILL be a mom. My husband WILL be the father of my children. We will be parents and live and function as any other family out there. I'll miss out on the experience of pregnancy and delivery, but I know the love I have for my child won't be anything less than that of a woman who bore her children. If anything, my love will be a little more special I think. And I can't wait! Plus, as I tell my friends who are currently pregnant, I'll have my baby but "at least my vag won't get all torn up!" :)