At 7pm CDT, I lit this candle . . .

. . . for me, for you, and for all others who truly understand the loss and grief of a pregnancy or infant that did not survive. I also lit candles for those who will come after us, that this terrible "sisterhood" to which we all belong can help those who need it.

October 15 - Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day

It was difficult looking at my three candles burning and knowing exactly what they represent. They each burned as vigorously as I cried so many hours and days after losing my three babies. While my candles are now out as I prepare for bed, my virtual candles will burn for the next 48 hours.




And to my three babies who await me in Heaven,

I cherish you and the thought of what you could have been. The love by which you were created on Earth and in Heaven is something I can only hope and pray you know. Understand that you are a piece of my heart that belongs only to you. I think of you all every day and cry for you often (and yet again today). May you work with Jesus to provide us with a child here on Earth that you can guard and protect for his or her days with us. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to try to care for you and love you. I am sorry that I failed you, and I hope to hold you in my arms someday. For now, I will just love you through remembrance.