I feel like I can't get anything done. Everything from work to home to my car and everywhere in between feels as if it's in disarray. It was all I could do not to break down and cry today. I am so incredibly overwhelmed and everything is suffering.
Examples from School:
1. I completely & totally didn't include the right learning units in my team's plans for the past few weeks, and now the entire fourth grade will be taking an assessment on stuff they haven't even learned. WTH did I do? Luckily, a team member figured it out, but it was my responsibility.
2. I am overwhelmed by the amount of paperwork and meetings I've had lately. My desk is a disaster. I have a TON of papers to grade and can't seem to get them done.
3. I accidentally gave a student of mine a 50 in Science on her progress report. I completely & totally didn't put the grade for one of her assignments in the grade book. Her average is really a 95. I sure hope she didn't get grounded because her teacher is an idiot.
5. I have another parent who questioned her son's grade. Now I'm doubting myself.
6. In the first nine weeks of schools, our students will have taken 9 major assessments. How ridiculous. No wonder I'm behind in my plans & absolutely overwhelmed. Usually I handle all of this very well. In fact, I'm infamous for being overly anal and organized and on top of things. Not lately! Must.get.it.together!!!
2. I am overwhelmed by the amount of paperwork and meetings I've had lately. My desk is a disaster. I have a TON of papers to grade and can't seem to get them done.
3. I accidentally gave a student of mine a 50 in Science on her progress report. I completely & totally didn't put the grade for one of her assignments in the grade book. Her average is really a 95. I sure hope she didn't get grounded because her teacher is an idiot.
5. I have another parent who questioned her son's grade. Now I'm doubting myself.
6. In the first nine weeks of schools, our students will have taken 9 major assessments. How ridiculous. No wonder I'm behind in my plans & absolutely overwhelmed. Usually I handle all of this very well. In fact, I'm infamous for being overly anal and organized and on top of things. Not lately! Must.get.it.together!!!
Examples from Home:
1. My house is a mess. The maid came today, and it's still a mess. Granted almost all of it isn't MY mess, but it's a mess. Disorganization and piles of stuff everywhere literally makes me anxious.
2. I finally went to the grocery store tonight for the first time in forever. We were out of toilet paper. Who runs out of toilet paper???
3. Laundry - I can't keep up with it, but I never have been able to keep up with laundry. Guess I don't plan on it at this point in the game.
4. I actually cooked dinner AND prepared lunches for both of us tomorrow. At least we won't starve to death in the next 14 or so hours. Thank goodness.
2. I finally went to the grocery store tonight for the first time in forever. We were out of toilet paper. Who runs out of toilet paper???
3. Laundry - I can't keep up with it, but I never have been able to keep up with laundry. Guess I don't plan on it at this point in the game.
4. I actually cooked dinner AND prepared lunches for both of us tomorrow. At least we won't starve to death in the next 14 or so hours. Thank goodness.
Personal Examples:
1. I haven't scrapbooked since August. I need to and want to work on my scrapbooks. Haven't done it.
2. I'm so freaking exhausted by the time I get home from work that I can't accomplish anything.
3. My email overfloweth as does my Google Reader.
4. I haven't returned phone calls in about a week.
5. My hair looks like crap. Luckily I have a hair appointment tomorrow. Hope I don't fall asleep, drink too much of her wine, or cry while I'm there. Or all three.
6. Doctors - I haven't rescheduled a doctor's appointment that was cancelled (by the dr.) last week. I haven't heard from my RE, but I haven't had time to even call and be concerned about it. I need to see someone about my sinus junk. I've felt bad for three weeks now.
SO . . . I have a few options that I'm considering. (1) Get more sleep. I just don't know when that will happen. (2) Don't make any more social plans through the rest of the month. I already have plenty. (3) Up my meds. Always a fun option. (4) Drink more. However, that would probably interfere with idea numbers 1 & 2. (5) Get my ass in gear. Quit procrastinating, prioritize, get it done, and take care of myself in the process.
Or, I can go with (6) Do all of the above. Time to get my head out of my ass. At least it's not up that guy's ass! That would be gross.
7 comments:
Go easy on yourself, Kekis. You've been through a lot lately, and your body might just be demanding a rest.
I can take care of items 1-6: Just give all the students a B. Brilliant, huh? B for brilliant.
I think you're being too hard on yourself.
I was a space cadet during our time TTC.. Just too much attention paid to that instead of everything else.
Girlfriend! Chill! Between your mom, Mary and the ups and downs of fertility and just life in general - you've been busy! It's almost Friday and you'll be free a few days. Sleep! Relax! Everthing else will fall in place!
Dont be too hard on yourself, we all go through times of complete disarray. The first step is recognizing it, so you're in good shape there :)
I find my memory is the worst. I can't remember anything unless I write it down. I'm a Type A personality, so I truly feel all this has to do with IF.
I say, "This too shall pass..." and I know yours will too. Make sure to take care of yourelf, get some rest, and have a few drinks. Bottoms up!
hehe! Sorry you are having such a hard time, but I am thankful that your head is not up that guy's butt! That WOULD be gross! I hope things start to smooth out for you and you can feel more accomplished!
You'd be surprised how often I run out of toilet paper. It's not just you. :)
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