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Friday, January 9, 2009

I need a secretary to take dictation.

I've had it.

Go the bathroom (or insert a catheter), get some popcorn (or a couple of meals), pour a cold drink (or ten), & let's see if I can get this down. I don't even know how to type all this crap out now. I need to get it out so I don't go completely insane and to help me remember when I do go nuts. Plus, I need the reminder in case I ever consider talking Dr. G&D ever, ever, ever again. Before I forget - I called the RE to whom I had been referred by friends and the first available appointment is at the end of February (aka as another cycle gone).

After the first call from Dr. G&D's office, my cell phone rings again. Two more times. While my class is taking a test! (Thank goodness for the vibrate ringer.) Dr. G&D wanted to at least do a phone consult with me. They asked if he could call me at 3:45. Sure. WTH.

So, the office calls AGAIN --- remember, they are efficient --- and when I call back, Dr. G&D is there to talk with me. I think he had enough sense to know that I am pissed at him and he is not my friend anymore. (I've been on the playground with the kids too much lately.) I was VERY short in my responses and my monotone voice showed my curtness, not courtesy.

Bottom line: I do not have a bicornuate uterus. I repeat, I do not have a bicornuate uterus. I do not have a septate uterus. I repeat, I do not have a septate uterus. WTF????? I'll be using a lot of quotation marks from here as I quote exactly what I wrote down while talking to Dr. G&D.

The HSG report showed "bicornuate uterus suspected." The MRI results "were not consistent with a bicornuate uterus or a septate uterus." He said on more than one occasion that my "uterine cavity is not normal." In looking at the HSG and MRI, Dr. G&D said that it appears there is a :uterine fibroid in the fundus (top) of the uterus." Another fibroid? And why is that damn thing STILL THERE? Didn't I just have surgery just 60 days ago to get all that crap out of my bum ute? I digress . . .

Dr. G&D also says that this is probably the only reason I'm having difficulty; that basically nothing else points to my losses. (I think he's more concerned than I am about WHY I've lost three babies. I've had to write off getting those answers to prevent me being taken away by the nice men with a three-armed white jacket.) I digress again . . . I responded, "Well, that and the MTHFR." He then states that "MTHFR by itself is not associated with an increase in miscarriage." Oh really, Sherlock? That's not what the research I've read offers. Through my research and talking with other women who have the MTHFR mutation, I beg to differ. Actually, I won't beg. I know that can't be true. There's just no effing way.

Then comes the suggestion that "we need to address the fibroid." As in send it a postcard? As in I need to send invitations to everyone for another hooha party? Dr. G&D vacillates between the facts that (1) I'm running out of time, (2) the fibroid needs to be "addressed", and (3) I need to get pregnant. I try multiple times to figure out what exactly he's talking about, and I begin to wonder if he even knows. (Funny that I would question that - AGAIN.) When I asked him what options he means, he says that it needs to be "addressed either abdominally or hysteroscopically." I think he's talking surgery. Again. The fourth in less than two years. Me = not happy. Still.

He continued to vacillate more than a cheap, old, metal fan with rust on it at your Meemaw's 100 year old house. He said that I could get pg, and if I "made it past 8 to 10 weeks" then things would probably be okay. How reassuring! I always spot in the sixth week of pregnancy (6w3d to be specific) and have miscarriages in the eighth week, so gosh, let's try the pg crapshoot again. I finally tell him that "I am getting mixed messages here. Are you saying that I need to get pg or have surgery?" I need one or the other. He finally says it - "Surgery."

Then I'm getting even more angry. I told him (while choking back tears because I cry when I don't scream) that "I wish I would've known this before the end of last year. I spent close to 1/10 of my annual salary last year, and this is STILL NOT FIXED." His heartfelt response? "I'm sorry." Asshole. That's just not enough. I then told him I needed to speak with my husband and ended the phone conversation.

Crying, I leave everything behind at school (and you have no idea HOW BEHIND I am right now) & trying not to completely lose my shit. For the bajillionth time in the past 22ish months, I have my personal cryfest in the car. I curse at people, I cry, and then the phone rings. It's DH. He knows I'm upset, so I tell him I talked to Dr. G&D and I'm not happy. We can talk when I get home.

Continuing on my quest, I call Dr. Terrific's office & leave a message with "Nurse Excellent" (Dr. T's wonderful, excellent, empathetic nurse) that I need to speak with Dr. T. She calls me back within twenty minutes and is not happy to hear what Dr. G&D said. When I mentioned surgery, Nurse E said, "Why don't you let Dr. T do it if it has to be done?" I hadn't thought of that. I told Nurse E that I will be contacting Dr. G&D's office on Monday to get all of my files together. "I want all reports, charts, films, and (party) pics. It's my uterus, and it will become a part of my uterine briefcase now." She wholeheartedly agreed. I'm going to become Rain Man after all by keeping my "red, severe injury book".


So . . . the next part of this screwed up story is a consult with Dr. T on Wednesday. If he can get me through this, get us pregnant, keep us pregnant, deliver us a precious little baby, and up my Prozac dosage in the meantime, then we might have a plan. He's my main man anyway.
Aannnnddd - SCENE.

10 comments:

Sarah said...

I want to jab Dr. G&D in the eyes repeatedly with a sharp stick. He's such a freaking moron!

Brooke said...

((Hugs)) I am sorry you had a crappy day and what sounds like a more then annoying conversation with Dr.G&D. I pray that Dr.T is the one for the job. Kinda like Keanu Reeves in the Matrix Dr.T will be "the one" to help you with your battle against things trying to destroy your uterus.

April & Geoff said...

Ugh. I'm sorry :( (((Hugs)))

Stephanie said...

(((BIG HUGS))) Wow, that is a lot to take in all in one day. I'm so sorry that your dr. is such an ass. I hope your new dr. will be able to give you a better plan of action and a little more hope. I'm so sorry you have to go through all of this crap with your stuipd doctor!

Laurie said...

So basically you are right back where you started a year ago? WTF?!

I think Dr. D & G is dreaming of being a surgeon than an RE.

I would HIGHLY recommend you talk to your new RE before you do any more surgeries.

Also, there have got to be more than 100 RE's in your local area. Call around until you can get in with someone asap. Doesn't mean you have to use that particular RE, just take your records and get a 2nd opinion.

Am I sounding like a bossy Patton woman? Sorry!

Wifezzilla said...

Good God, if I am this frustrated with B&D just after reading this, I can't even begin to imagine how frustrated YOU are.

Just so you know, the cerification word I got is "shizat". that made me laugh.

Erin Fae said...

((hugs))

If you ever need someone to slash his tires, break his knee caps or something of that ilk just let me know.

kate said...

Ugh! I'm so sorry you have to deal with stupid, stupid Dr. G&D. I hope that Dr. T lives up to his lovely reputation and you have some good news soon. ((huge hugs))

natenang654 said...

OMG, I am fairly new to your blog so I don't know all of the history, but this RE sounds like a nut! I hope you decide to pursue tx w/ Dr. Terrific and get the best care ever! Good luck!

Chelle said...

I can feel how very frustrated you are. You are so strong. I would have snapped already. REALLY. I SO hope that Dr. T is the one that is going to make this happen for you.

((HUG))

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