Dr. G&D (who actually chuckled yesterday!) prescribed misoprostol that I took last night. Cramping again. Fun. More bleeding. Delightful. I've only been bleeding for 14 days now. Luckily there are pain pills for after I get home. I love pain pills. In fact, I wish I could take one now. :)
Today is starving-to-death today since I can't eat or drink anything as of midnight. Of course I did a lot of grocery shopping this week, and our kitchen is filled with yummy fruits, breads, meats, veggies, cheese, etc. (mmmmm!) Hospital check-in is at 11:45. I'll get vampired & then given the chance to sit around and chew my fingernails or something less entertaining. Surgery is set for 1:45. I hope to be home no later than 6:00. I just hope my pain can be better managed this round.
Last night I was emotional, and I am again this morning. This has been a stressful week in many ways & I probably need the release. I'm just feeling really left behind lately. It seems like there are babies and children all around us, but none of them are ours. I hate feeling lonely - especially when I'm surrounded by people. This journey has been so difficult. I know when we have a beautiful, healthy baby to bring home it will make more sense. But for now, it still hurts.
I'm a little nervous but also ready to get this over with. Here we go . . .