Friday, November 12, 2010
Right now, I'm experiencing a wave of emotion that is linked to fear ---- fear of the unknown, fear of failure. In reading a couple of different online forums, I've seen some cases of women going through similar journeys as ours that have experienced failed IVF cycles. I read their stories and questions and my stomach sinks into a small pit. I am trying to remain positive and hopeful, but the inevitable (aka my history) takes over and I just want to be ill.
I do have smaller waves of emotion that bring excitement, hopefulness, and readiness. I need to work on riding those waves more often than not and continuing to review my mental images (visualizations) of the outcome we want.
Let's just hope when I start the real hormones next week, that the waves don't look more like this! :)