Tuesday, November 2, 2010
What the Hell Am I Thinking???
IVF. In vitro fertilization. We're doing IVF. IVF with ICSI and CGH. Am I crazy? This will be me. Voluntary Madness. In the loony bin. Seriously. I must be absolutely insane. What in the hell am I thinking here? Do I think I'll actually get pg AND stay pg? Hope? Is that what I have? I have hope? Ha!!! How stupid of me! I definitely have to be totally off my rocker.
And the meds . . . WTH am I really going to be doing to myself? Will I just be a human pin cushion? Multiple injections, pills, vaginal suppositories, and shots in the ass every day? What???!!!!! Will I explode? I'm going to be a raging bitch, aren't I? I'm going to really need to watch myself. I can't go batshit crazy again.
Oh fun fun - the doubts have returned! Haven't seen them in a while, but then again I haven't had that silly hope thingy running around in my mind either. Crazy or not, we're doing it anyway. Lord have mercy . . . this will either be really great or totally suck. I told you that this might be a bumpy ride!